Pain in the psyche

My experience during introspection is that there’s so much deception taking place in my psyche. An ongoing process. Coming to grips with reality is painful, for this reason, there’s a continuous need to evade reality. As a result, deception is there to either facilitate and/or avoid pain. But even that act is painful. Seeking sensual pleasure to avoid pain? But that sensual pleasure itself is painful too. Denying the truth of one’s nature and position in this existence? But that denial is painful too.

I learned from Madhva about the adjuncts in the psyche. And much about the intellect and kundalini’s grip on the Coreself. Perhaps, in some lifetime I’ll advance to the level of being able to directly perceive the operations of these adjuncts. And thus, confront and address their dominance in my psyche. Until then, they continue to assail the Coreself, and deny it’s desperate plea for freedom from slavery.