Suryananda - Progress Note - 10/14/2017
Preliminaries were met to a good extent, there was intensity in the session and it was prolonged to about an hour.
There were very few intense sensations of any kinds relatively noting, even as it regards the diffuse misty sensations. Only an occurrence of mild warm tingling sensations wrapping the back around the shoulder blades, back of the lower neck and upper back is recalled.
Beyond about 40 minutes or two-thirds of the breath infusion, the energy was manifesting at different locations but only displaying light gold color atmospheric clouds, I don’t recall another sensation associated with them, even though my focus may simply not have detected them on these occasions. This happened repeatedly and there was no solicitation of the life force in a classic fashion, along the subtle spinal axis.
At other times the mindfield presented a kaleidoscopic foreground, with concentrations of gold colored pixelated specs in some areas close to the center, these were presented on a dark or greyish background. During one manifestation of the energy in the head of the subtle form, as the session neared its end, the perception of the transcendental sound vibration shifted abruptly as the foreground manifested.
When I sat for meditation, initially I didn’t realize that I was already in naad because apparently, I didn’t have to make an effort for it. There was also no need it seems to look for the core of the sound; the sound was blasting loudly in the subtle head. I decided to peer ahead, there were no images, and it was calm, stable and empty.
It felt as if the frequency had relocated with me to the front. However, once I decided to go back then I realized that I had lost connection to the core, and had to actively pull the self-attention back to it. This all happened in just the first few minutes of the meditation. Eventually, I had to just do my default meditation at my level, which does not really include moving the naad anywhere and is only exploring the aspect of looking to the front during appropriate sessions.
And, there are even times when the quality of the meditation, as it relates to the breath infusion session only allows for the retreat at the back, as focus on naad even when clearly audible can be unstable, particularly once the charge from the infusion flattens out. During this particular session there appeared halfway into the session or 20 minutes, a tiny orange dot appeared on the lower right side, I would suggest that it may have been perceived by the intellect.
