Practice report ... 06/22/2016
This evening during practice, after about an hour of asanas and pranayama, kundalini came up but not so forceful. I wasn't satisfied with this initial burst, so I again went back down to rooster pose and continue with the pranayama. As soon as the body came up, I quickly applied the locks and felt kundalini was much more forceful this time. In a split second where I felt it was going to hit the buddha organ, I put more pressure on the neck lock, and then I observed something I hadn't seen before.
I felt this disconnect, and noticed this distance from where my attention was situated and the front of the mind-space. In that distance, I felt that nothing existed there, and realize then that I can do without the reliance of what I felt disconnected from.
Observing the distance, it was kind off darkish, but it wasn't so dark that I couldn't notice it (if that makes any sense). I'm not sure how to measure subtle distance, but it seems like an arm's-length.
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There are several spiritual levels of formlessness, which means that one experiences oneself to be without a distinct form and without anything which is threatened. In comparison, right now we are aware of each other as material bodies or as subtle bodies, which have distinct forms and limits. That is in stark contrast to the experience you had where you have perception or focus but have no clear cut edge, skin or membrane with which to judge your extents. Some yogis who have such experiences conclude that they reached a state without limit, a state of infinity. Actually it is not that. It is merely a spiritual existential place in which your varied sense detection is suspended or is irrelevant because of the lack of form variety and distinction which exists elsewhere. Some yogis enter such states and remain there for millions of years. These are free from the hassles of material existence and also from the trying circumstances and dimensional shifts which one might be subjected to on the subtle planes. The question to ask yourself is if you would be satisfied being in that state for millions of years?
