Observed Within Pitch Black!
Sensing within pitch black!
Never mind the visions of Hollywood within its movie and entertainment, if you will indulge me.
At first there seemed to be an inclination of depressive energy. Michigan, by Lake Chicago is for gloomy weather days indeed and so much the pressures of everything else as well.
Those thoughts were put aside by the grace of providence and shri guru. Like a bubble poked in the midst, it evaporated.
From within the asanas the psyche all around was being observed as much as possible. In particular during transition and right before, this allowed for connection with the body at a finer and minuscule level.
The asanas themselves although relatively intense were not the focus but the inner psychic observations, on account of which the rhythm of the session was determined. And things so to speak did not move according to preset expectations.
That darkness was significant, it was empty space within filled with energy, and more awareness at the head level. At times of energy manifestations in the forms of sensations the self was attempted to connect with the works, and also remember naad especially right before the different events. This has proved helpful in grounding or better said, tracking the self!
When meditation followed after a delay of a couple of minutes, naad was felt to be intensely rich and thick. This is due to the introspective and connective format of the asanas, and that started by dismissing depressive and retarding energies.
There was the idea of this little boy without any care in the world just standing under an enormous water fall. He simply was allowing his whole being to be bathed, immersed in the tons of droplets of water all around. He was positioned to the middle right side of the panorama.
Where he was standing was the most impactful and intensified part of the fall, but the fall spread over a long distance, and he was aware of it all. Time was of no concern, just the sensation of the water fall. So now, the entire body felt at the micro level, every part and particles felt as fusing in the hearing of naad. That was noted by a partitioned energy of the attention.
That segment of energy seemed to have a very clear observation capacity in that space, just as a beam of light would appear at dawn. It moved very quickly, but wasn’t erratic or anxious. Under the water fall there was no exuberance, no exaltation either, simply quietude and maybe not even so much peace per se, as it was more contentment.
The self is getting along with the naad sound, it isn’t minding, it is allowing. The attention energy wasn’t resisting for over some twenty minutes. Then the sun I would like to say was going down.
The boy new that soon even though the water fall will be there for all time, and each day after each day, this time the careless immersion was coming to an end. However, the attention energy made a snap walk thru and provided reassurance to the bodies; this permitted the kid a few more minutes away from it all.
Alas, the momentum eventually fizzled out, the self was there and not there, the kid had indeed left the place in his mind already, and he was back in the swing of regularity and "externality".
When interrogated as to his whereabouts, what explanation(s) do I have? In terms of honesty, was I tucking my-self away from the pressures and tensions? Will I someday gauge my sincerity on this most precious of paths?
