Naad vs Me vs the Others

NAAD, ME & the OTHERS

For me, this needs a some solid inSelf yoga sessions first.

Then, a close dichotomy of my social self as it relates to the others and my social self as it considers naad transcendental level of consciousness.

Also, the social self appreciated as just compilation of energies between the social considerations and transcendence.  

Overtime, my battles, trials and tribulations as well as attributions have been seen as a relationship of this social self and the environment it is an element of, so that the previously stated, that relationship is only a symbol.

I allow the self to wander (almost float) away from that symbol, the sum total of the natural ever evolving melodrama. I do not fight, I yield as I not so much now do not need to forcefully turn towards, but just be with naad. This interplay of forces is my individual and personal actualization of day to day life overtime!

All feel quiet, I am in quiescence (refer to diagram on “public photos” by Mi~Beloved (refer to diagram on “public photos” by Mi~Beloved).)

I don’t need to want or will either, I remain here with naad. Yet, I want to even be more with naad, be closer, be inner as the quietude pulls so much; its vastness and depth get louder and captivating.

So I relax the sense of this I, me vis-à-vis all those others. Then consider my first meditation sitting with my beloved guru the incomparable in these times, the go to yogi in the subtle and in between, the illustrious correspondent Michael Beloved.

Just trace the little sensations on the body, any little tingling sensations... while remaining with naad some attention energy is partitioned to check in the body. Some part in the right thigh has already begun to create time awareness, social pressure or tension by starting to contract.

And as I do, there is fusion with subtle sensations and naad clarity. as they deepen, I hear naad more, I feel naad, I sense, I commune with naad.

I remember that in naad time is irrelevant, only reverence of naad. So, I don’t so much perceive the timely contraction or expansion of the universe, or any perpetual wounding mechanism, time is relaxed, I am not pulled, I don’t pull. I feel spatial homeostasis.

I just am with naad, in my simplicity my total nakedness. Therefore, be it a moment or many, I don’t mind such details…, because that was just time with naad. After all, naad has been most patient, most forgiving, most kind, and so was providence to afford me its presence even outside of practice, when I couldn’t just be, or just be with naad.

After time with naad, I can ask where my sense of responsibility was, where had my endless activities gone, how did they slip away for a while, and how can I be true in my gratitude?