Mood Swings

In February 2023, during a meditation session, thoughts surfaced about some events and the associated resentment energies that were present in my psyche. I pondered about the origin of it. What was the initial cause of this, why does it dominate the psyche in this way and how can I rid the psyche of it?  

Then some other thoughts surfaced which said that I “should not take these situations personally. Instead, I should see it as mere energy in the psyche that should be removed and replaced with higher energy. Do not personalize it, reduce it to its worth. Remember the Brahma Yoga Bhagavad Gita. What is the essence of it?”  

Then, there were sexual thoughts being exchanged between my intellect and another person. I questioned why there was such an interest in this person, knowing that the brief moments of fulfillment with this individual will result in more responsibility, and eventually backfire. Then I thought that I should “not view this as my personal attraction or interest in the individual. After all, how do I know for certain that this is my personal interest, and not some remote energy that is influencing the psyche? Disassociate yourself from it and view it as a foreign energy, not as your personal interest.”  

OfCourse this is easier said than done. Many times, in my case, when my psyche becomes saturated with a certain influence/energy. I may act, think, and perceive situations based on that energy. The perception in those moments persists until its influence dissipates or is replaced with a different energy.  

Nevertheless, nowadays I try to view these conflicts and so-called interests in the psyche as either energy that facilitates a certain mood and/or mood that facilitates a certain perception and interest. The goal is to adopt this as the default perspective in the psyche. In fact, Sri Krishna spoke of this in the Bhagavad Gita. I am just now understanding a minute aspect of what he taught Arjuna. Please see an associated verse below:  

Excerpt taken from Bhagavad Gita by Michael Beloved: 

सत्त्वं रजस्तम इति 

गुणाः प्रकृतिसंभवाः । 

निबध्नन्ति महाबाहो 

देहे देहिनमव्ययम् ॥१४.५॥ 

sattvaṁ rajastama iti 

guṇāḥ prakṛtisaṁbhavāḥ 

nibadhnanti mahābāho 

dehe dehinamavyayam (14.5) 

sattvaṁ — clarity; rajaḥ — impulsion; tama — retardation; iti — thus; guṇāḥ — influences; prakṛtisaṁbhavāḥ = prakṛti— material nature + saṁbhavāḥ — produced of; nibadhnanti — they captivate; mahābāho — O great-armed hero; dehe — in the body; dehinaṁ — embodied soul; avyayam — Imperishable 

Clarity, impulsion and retardation are the influences produced of material nature. They captivate the imperishable embodied soul in the body, O strong-armed hero. (14.5)