Dream Recall 2/26/2020 - Suryananda
I became clearly aware in my dream. I was in my corresponding bedroom in the subtle dimension. It had my stuff just like I tend to live over the past few years. The clarity of my being lucid along with my sustained presence in the room was a bit surprising. I tried all kinds of stuff including going through the wall of the room and letting (I guess my core-self) fall into my psyche at dizzying speed, but being able to let go and simply be, it was vertiginous! It wasn’t my subtle body traveling at great near torturous velocity in space.
One thing that was different about this particular dream is the fact that I eventually remained in the room just as I would normally in regular life yet all the while lucid, and here and there if I wanted to try something I’d just do it. This time though I didn’t do the practice. I just hung around the room, but knowing that I wasn’t dead just using my so-called ghost body. It was kind of eerie to be in the same space aware that my body was also there, like any other unimportant object occupying space in the room. I was not perceiving or seeing the body, I just knew it was there and I, the person was just there as well, but apart.
Eventually, it felt like the night was expiring. I went by the door which was open and next door in this apartment was my brother. This is the brother that I noted years ago reappears in my dream most consistently of my other family members, although we are very dissimilar in character and life interests. I cannot figure out the reason, but the fact that he comes right after me in birth order might be the explanation even if I am able to see the why quiet yet.
As he happened to also have his room door open and was just coming at his door as well, I was caught off guard and became concerned. I picked a glass of water that I normally use in the current life, it was sitting close to the door on a little side table, and filled in three-quarters of the way with water by mind wish. I thought that somehow, the water in the glass will make me look normal. I was not sure how this was going to end, I said good morning. He replied good morning, and then as if talking to himself, said: “I thought that was you” (referring to me). I realized that he hadn’t seen me. He couldn’t perceive me! So I rushed to my body which was at the other end of the room laying on a mat.
I was very concerned that he’d figure out what I was playing mystic (as he isn’t someone I discuss these sorts of stuff with, it could be bizarre or disturbing to him – I am aware of this). As I went my body in a dash, I sense that my subtle form became hazy as it superimposed into the physical one, just on time for my brother to start waking me up in that other subtle dimension where he was. I was sleeping in a subtle dimension, which was also different from the one he was in. So regarding our association, perhaps I got acquainted with him in the subtle dimension prior to birth, and he still resides there, and I continue to show up there in my dream experiences.
Unfortunately, I wasn’t able to observe any details as to the transition from the subtle form to the gross. As I passed from the subtle, I was concerned for a split second that something may go wrong if, for instance, I was to take too long and not synch seamlessly as normally, and he would discover what I was up to, or some snag happens, but then I realized that I was waking up in the body. This time, however, the integration of the gross body immediately gives me a sense of weightiness associated with bodies and gravity.
It is interesting that this dream seems to me to be almost a sequel to my last dream of this sort. I am concluding that there is a separate subconscious existence or parallel subtle lives that the same individual can have. I feel that these two dreams are related and are showing me certain realizations. I feel that one such realization is the I need to practice more in order to be able to observe the transition between the two states and that the other stuff of playing in the subtle with speeding in space may be getting old (for me), to some extent.
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Great experience! Is the relationship with the said brother social/genetic or has he followed you in previous births in other ancestral lines?
If it is only social/genetic, then you should research it in meditation to pin down the relative value of it, otherwise harmless as it may seem, it will affect your progress.
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Indeed, I have been aware of this concern, and I realize it is problematic.
There has to be a reason! And not knowing makes me really uneasy. It's so obvious, he is repeatedly present, yet we are pretty much the two most dissimilar, almost opposite in nearly every aspect. I feel more connected to just about anyone else in the family, so that doesn't help either.
I will meditate on it more and continue to hope that at the right time the answer will reveal. I hope it is only a socio-genetic relationship, but so are my relationships with my other siblings as far as I can tell, but he is the only one who is consistently showing up in the subtle, usually just there somewhere around.
Talking about an unwanted company (now that I have different plans for the afterlife).
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Check for the layer under the layer under that layer. He may be a gift of responsibility from someone else or even a collective gifts from more than one person.
The bouquet was presented by the smiling girl to the President. He appreciatively took it. Ten seconds after it blew up. It was a bomb. Neither the President nor the girl knew what it was. Those who created it and arranged for the girl to present it were nowhere to be found. What does the girl have to do with it other than being a victim?
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Holding at high value the statement of the exceptional Yogiraja Shri Patanjali, that experience is the objective of this train of existence, then it holds true that comprehending its complexities is of at most importance.
It is also very important to mention here that Yogiraja RishiDeva Michael Beloved has always stressed and underlined the importance of sleep phase awareness. It is only due to this direct teaching, and accepting it at face value over more than a couple of decades, that since a few years only I can see really how impactful this is on one’s spiritual enfoldment.
So I am grateful to be in a position to notice that what might otherwise be considered as a simple, trite and even idiotic occurrence in my life when it comes to this dream association is actually a very important and relevant phenomenon on my spiritual advancement. And if I am to have one, a genuine advancement, then I consider this realization as a progress in itself. And without its satisfactory resolution further progression is compromised!
It is a relief then to have more or less concluded upon other relational circumstances with family, progeny, social status, environmental considerations and ancestral interests/ desire energy manifestations along with additional direct over the phone assistance/ communication with RishiDeva that I can see the premise of the association as socio-genetic. And to further conclude that I am at the end of my rope in terms of additional contribution to those material concerns and interest is indeed an inestimable blessing I owe to direct association with the bonafide and authentic inSelf Yoga guru! Dandavats Rishi!
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Good luck in steadily reducing your contribution and interest on the outside and the inside. Be vigilant in keeping your intention out front. May the grace of providence bless you to reach your spiritual goal.
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Yes, it is a really serious deal! It is IMO one of the banes of an (inSelf) yogi, there are many, making it a most arduous path.
From what I see, the process has to be manifest already by a certain stage in one's practice, but also be in one's tendency in terms of (as you point outside) reduced need to participate.
It is a living and organic process, that results from one's personal experience, attitudinal position, and afforded providential opportunities.
Also, I feel that a reduction in contribution cannot take place without a genuine and authentic contribution to family/ society based on karmic circumstances along with heightened degree objectivity into the performance of indicated participation. The spiritual goal is more facilitated by a prioritizing of the need for "spiritual survival" (as opposed to material survival and/or subtle material semi-permanence). Altogether, much providential grace is needed.
