Boisterous Mental Privacy

Srila Yogesh in a conversation in my subtle head during meditation this morning, brought to my attention that sometimes a student may be attached to boisterous mental behavior within the mind. This occurs in the privacy of the mind where the adjuncts which create imagination, memory and ideation, indulgence in a riotous mood which is full of confusion and is devoid lack of insight.

It is an involuntary system which happens in the mind, but in so far as the core-self willingly indulges in it, the self shares some fault for its proliferation. During meditation one can observe how this takes place.

In meditation if one does it after a breath infusion session, one may find that the mind is in order, focused on the supercharged energy in the subtle body. This focus may vary from day to day according to the breath-infusion charge which accumulates. After the charge subsides a bit, one should have a focus on naad or on some other transcendental person, place or state.

Absorption in that transcendental focus is vital and should be maintained but from time to time, even frequently or rarely, the yogi will find that he discoveres the core-self to be unfocused from the objective but focused towards something mundane and quite normal which the mind has switched his attention to. The conclusion is that the mind unfreezes itself from the transcendental focus and grafts itself into some mundane subject, which the core-self regrettably attached itself to without even knowing that it did so during the delinkage from the objective and the linkage to what was undesired.

This involuntary linkage to what was counterproductive to the meditation should be noted by the core-self.

Does the core-self desire this deviation just a little?

Does it enjoy this diversion in any way?

Is the core-self curious about this mental display somehow?

This is a boisterous mental behavior. It ruptures the attempt at advanced meditation, where a student unknowing may be encouraging this and thus sabotaging spiritual advancement.

Srila Yogesh said that a student should train the self to be interested in the transcendental states and to be disinterested in such mental privacy. This training is required because the default attitude of the mind is to delve into, be curious about and make deep research into the mundane conditions of mind. He cited sex pleasure as something which is riotous and which one may become so attached to whereby not having the disturbance of it, one becomes unhappy. In which case one would be required to retrain the self so that it becomes happy without it and is disturbed when it arises or is experienced.