Conversion of Tendencies ~ Birth till Death

Yogis should study how tendencies are converted and applied according to the age of the body. For instance when I was nine years of age, I had a crush on a girl who was a minister’s daughter. Every time I would see this girl who was about 11 years at the time, my heart would melt and I would long to be with her.

About three years after I first met her, she got a boyfriend who was another church member but who was new to the church. Suddenly her attraction to me decreased considerably. I felt that reduction and was uncertain about what it meant. I was not hurt by it but it causes me to feel that the relationship with her was riddled with flexibility.

How would such an attraction manifest if say I was first attracted to this girl after I passed through puberty. How would it be say if I met that girl at say 40 years of age, or 50 or 60 years of age? Would there be any difference in the quality or intensity of the attraction?

Suppose somehow I met this girl in a future life but she had somehow acquired a male body, would I be attracted to him just the same. Would I become a homosexual just to proceed with the attraction, even though I may have no cohesive memory of this current life when she had a female body?

Sometimes we see that a person who is affectionate to us, suddenly for a reason or for no reason at all, converts into being resentful and conniving. How does that happen? Is it the same energy of attraction; which converts to opposite features?

To understand the self, a yogi should study these variations of behavior in himself (herself) and in others, but in studying it in others, he should not get into criticizing or censoring others and taking gratification in that, but rather should use the example as a way of learning how nature operates in every psyche, in his own and in others.

A yogi should not become upset, reactive and disturb when observing conversion behaviors in others. Such mento-emotional posturing is quite natural. A yogi should observe those changes in terms of gaining insight into how energies rapidly fluctuate in the psyche, and he should learn from great teachers how to calm himself and squelch reactive postures.