I also don't understand, if you don't care about murder and the horrors of this dimension, why leave? Why work so hard to leave a place that doesn't bother you? Even witnessing the murder of our Lord's favorite animal and a favorite of many of us?

I do mind the horrors of this dimension, that's what motivates me to leave. 

What motivates you then?

MiBeloved:

Motivation to leave this dimension?

That is important if for no other reason that the motivation acts as the engine of enthusiasm for the yogi/yogini. However as each of the selves are different. Each may have a different motivation.

Mine is simply that I know of other better places to be.

Even physically we see that people leave one country and go to another on the basis of some description which they learn about from others. That is natural.

For me, nature runs this place and it is really none of business how nature arranged this. If nature arranged this to be a dog-eat-dog situation, then that is just fine with me. But if nature has another bettter place, and if it is possible to qualify to transit there, I will endeavor to buy a ticket out of here.

My question about this place is not about the circumstances here but rather about if there are other arrangements of nature which are available. If such places exist, then I am ready to abandon this place. I do not see that anyone can change the way this place is set up, except superficially. I do not want to waste my time endeavoring to change something which cannot be adjusted ever in a permanent way. So it is best for me to find more suitable accomodations elsewhere.

Unlike the oneness philosophers, I am interested in a compatible environment rather than in no environment. I want to be with other compatible people, rather than to be in a people-less absolute energy. But certainly I respect the way this place is set up even though many of its aspects are not to my liking.

To perceive the anguish of a dying animal, one which was brutally murdered, one has to have certain perceiving equipment. As a coreSelf (atma) only one cannot perceive the death of anything. One has to have adjuncts and that psychic equipment must be configured and linked in a specific way.

This is called exposure. If I am exposed to cow slaughter and my adjuncts are configured in a certain way, then I will not be able to bear it. If it is configured in another way, I may be indifferent to it.

From that perspective, it is the combination of coreSelf and adjuncts which causes one person to react in this way and another person in that way.

Recently a medical professional took blood from my arm. He used a hypodermic needle. Because of the configuration of the adjuncts and how they were linked to the coreSelf, I could not bear to even look at the needle. I had to turn my head away. Once I could not see it, it did not cause anguish except for the expectation of pain when the needle was to be inserted.

This means that somehow, I have the sensitivity now which I did not have as a juvenile looking at a cow being slaughtered. That is what is meant by exposure.