Recent Memories of sharing

As I reminisced, memories and realizations came around. It was important to write them down in order to consolidate conclusions. Some aspects are only evident to ones whom I have closely associated with over the years. Otherwise it is only to inform that the Transcendental Yoga class site which was linked to inSelf Yoga site is permanently deleted.

Generally and simply speaking, I have gone full circle. I thought that it was a matter of somehow finding the right way, circumstance and setting (and even person) to share.  About 15 years ago when Rishi Michael came for me, I saw in him a real one on account of his great humility, lack of greed as it were or even desire for disciples and followers, et cetera.

Although his position and writings were discouraging towards this, I still continued to provide assistance to others and put Rishi in a position to deal with them; as he would be the one able to get through. After all he is the great yogi master who wrote so many books…

At the same time I also was aware that the practice per se was not even to be done in the open. Only in the past year would I go to a park, find a secluded place for afternoon yoga, occasionally. So there was some type of understanding for the need for secrecy, but a vague and almost superstitious one.

From teaching openly, I can see that I was influenced by the desire and energies of others as well as my own. As a result it couldn’t be the right thing for me. I am not able to see the position of these energies in relation to the work I need to do for the self. And, others are only able to take up to this practice based on their personal alignment and relationship with nature or providence.

Besides, in these times where the environments are so taxing considering the all compelling need for survival, a technique this powerful will easily be exploited. That is very risky for me; therefore it is safer that the responsibility be borne by advanced yogis. They can safely engage designated others and train them in taming instinct, navigating social arenas and pushing them into their heads deeper.

Now when I read that Lord Krishna sees himself as the qualified person to teach “as low as” karma yoga, I go well of course “duh”. To imagine that I can help anyone beyond karma yoga where Bhisma Deva couldn’t to save his own life…

One important aspect is that I could have been stopped from teaching and then I would have been deprived of the opportunity to make this specific growth, therefore quite possibly plot a way to live it out later on or in future birth(s). As a teacher and also counselor by trade and proclivity in this lifetime, it is was exceptional for me to come to consider inSelf Yoga as distinct to any other human or natural endeavor, and that sounds fanatical.  

The class was a success outwardly, at the end participants requested that I make some videos or at least continue in the format of a Skype session or other. It is right and can be life saving for others, for me it seems to have also served its invaluable purpose. By an unlikely fortune I was saved from my circumstance so that this time it did not take a life of its own from where it could continue to wrestle me beyond the graves.