I sit back again for meditation activity. Initially there was no success... so I started to calm down again and dropped my thoughts to zero. 

Manish, Please clarify what method you used to drop the thoughts to zero.

I asked why I am looking different, why I am separated from this.

The answer was "You never wanted to be with it"

Also clarify if this in the first sentence above refers to the state which had the waves or the previous state.