Indeed, I have been aware of this concern, and I realize it is problematic.

There has to be a reason! And not knowing makes me really uneasy. It's so obvious, he is repeatedly present, yet we are pretty much the two most dissimilar, almost opposite in nearly every aspect. I feel more connected to just about anyone else in the family, so that doesn't help either.

I will meditate on it more and continue to hope that at the right time the answer will reveal. I hope it is only a socio-genetic relationship, but so are my relationships with my other siblings as far as I can tell, but he is the only one who is consistently showing up in the subtle, usually just there somewhere around.

Talking about an unwanted company (now that I have different plans for the afterlife).