Yogi Who Killed Others
Meditationtime Forum Post
Date: Posted 5 years before May 27, 2017
MiBeloved 5 years ago
I was in a crazy astral realm last night but at about 4.30 am, I found myself back on this side with a memory of an instruction which I got from Srila Yogeshwarananda during the night. Somehow I entered a cross world where people are allowed to reformulate their frustrations and then try to resolve these in the astral. There are really places for psychotic people but then again, most human beings are just that and so are the entities in most of the other species of life.
In this world many people want to settle disputes. Many of these are purely of a social nature, mostly having to do with material existence. You can imagine how mad that is because a body only lasts for 70 or so years which in comparison to the length of existence of the universe is really not even a second in time. Almost every human being is considering itself to be valuable, important and very indispensable. That is the wonder of nature that it has given an allowance to something that is miniscule.
While using a child’s body in South American in this life, I used to observe three household visitors; ants, lizards and spiders. It was always a wonder to me how a spider which is less than one quarter of an inch in size, would stand its ground over what it considered to be its territory. New Agers talk about getting rid of fear because they feel that fear disfigures the profile of the self. Well these tiger spiders were so fearless as to be stupid in not being able to estimate what their power and energy really was.
The ants are a totally different observation. They used to make trails to the kitchen counter. Then they would come on their trails and take away anything which they gained access to. They were not interested in salt, just sugar, food crumbs, meat, fish, eggs and the like. They never moved over for anybody. It was theirs as far as they were concerned. If you interfered with them, they stung you and then reorganized their soldierly formations to continue their sense of ownership.
We had two types of lizards. One was called a gecko. This type of lizard had the ability to change its skin tone according to the surface it was on. Somehow their perception of an external environment caused their minds to influence their skin to change color. Sometimes you hear in the Mahabharata how some warriors invoked weapons by making certain Sanskrit sounds. It sounds like myth doesn’t it? Well these spiders were no myth. They had that power.
These geckos would crawl along a ceiling or crawl up a wall and then eat insects like mosquitoes, tiny moths and the like. We lived in a small one room house with one dull light bulb which was the total appliance. These lizards would come out at night, get near that light, flick their tongues and eat moths on and on and on. For them electricity was the greatest solution to the food problem.
They had no idea who created the bulbs or the current which went through it and they could care less about that. They were in the moment of what was available for their species in that time and place.
We also had some green lizards. These did not have the mystic power to change skin tone. These did not come out at night. They rarely entered the house. They remained on the outside and kept their distance from human beings.
As children we would do wicked things like hold a lizard by its tail. That is a no no, because the tail sometimes snapped off. It will remain there while the lizard skittered away. It will still have some life force in it, so it would twittle from side to side for a while. Talk about no judgment. We had no idea that this action caused suffering to the lizard. We never formed the opinion that we were inconveniencing it by destroying its sense of balance.
We had special small black ants which we called running ants. These guys are always moving in high gear like the workers in New York City at Grand Central Station during the rush hour. These ants never moved at a slow place, and fittingly they loved sugar.
Sometimes I would find their nest under a board. I would lift up the board and expose their nest to light. They would then move very fast to relocate their broods of larvae elsewhere. Talk about no opinion. I had no idea that this was like the act of taking away every residence of every person in a human city and even throwing the newborn babies out of their cribs.
There is one other thing I want to mention which is especially wicked. Yes, I have a right to judge myself on this matter, so don’t try to convince me otherwise. The gecko lizards laid eggs in walls and crevices. These eggs were about one quarter inch, give or take a little. Sometimes I would find one of these. Then I would wonder what was in it. I would then crack the shell. Need I say more?
Once I saw a baby lizard crack its own shell and come out of it. In this way I got to understand how that operation was completed. I then connected that to the incidence of having hens sit on eggs and then have chickens produced as a result.
So these were some of the criminal acts I did as a child. This happened because of lack of parental supervision. My father was busy drinking liquor, gambling and working on the waterfront. My mother was miles away up a river working for the Americans who were mining bauxite to build their jet planes.
Once when I was in a forest area in South America, I came upon a large tarantula. These are the types which catch even small birds like humming birds. The creature jumped at me and I was agile enough to jump back before it could reach me. I don’t know what its intentions were but I got out of there in a hurry. Once however there was a jungle spider on a path and I was about to step on it, when a voice in my head said,
“Can you make it? If you cannot make it, then don’t kill it. Have you any idea how many millions of years it would take you to make something like that. How much time would you require to make even one of its limbs? Don’t kill any of these life forms willfully or I will have your head for it.”
