Yogi Scared to be an Infant

Meditationtime Forum Post

Date:  Posted 6 years before Oct 03, 2018

MiBeloved 6 years ago

Recently I was observing how the kundalini energy conducts everything in an infant body. I was considering myself as an infant in the next life, about how I would treat my parents. If the kundalini is left to its own devices, then it seems that as an infant it will use crying as a weapon against the parents, especially against the mother of the body whose kundalini seems to give in to any scheme in order to avoid seeing the crying face and hearing the crying voice of her child.

Of course it is not her child but her kundalini thinks that it is and since she is under the influence of that conditioning, she really and truly feels that it is her created infant.

Whatever the kundalini desires to get, it demands from the mother. If it does not get that, then it puts the body into a pitiful crying state, which the mother cannot tolerate. She can neither control the infant nor control her impulsion to do whatever is demanded just to stop the crying state.

I was wandering about people who say that kids are innocent. So far I was unable to find any evidence to support that. What I see is that the kundalini carries over into the next life its survival instincts and it will do whatever it feels like doing including blackmailing the whole world, to get whatever it desires.

In an infant body, it will stop a train, crash a meditation session; drag the mother through emotional pains and much more, to get whatever it wants, even if those fulfillments are harmful to it.

This has made me very timid and scared about taking another body, in fear that this would be my behavior of innocence, a very ugly innocence indeed.

I don’t want to be an infant in this way. I don’t want to abuse my next mother, if there is to be one. I don’t want to take advantage of a mother’s helplessness in conducting her emotions.

I am terribly afraid of this!