Surya Daily Report - 12/14/2012

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Date:  Posted 5 years before Jan 08, 2018

unlimitedsun 5 years ago

Fri. - 12/14/2012

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Yoga Practice is maintained

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Subtle body ventures or interests recalled synopses/ retell:

:-) ... I was angered by the action of a maid who messed my wardrobe. I became inconsolable.  A senior, a friend of my father was present, but my anger disregarded respect. My sister who was listening to me was smiling, still I was yelling and cursing, on and on. We were in one location and walked to our dwellings, but I was still going off!

I am grateful for this dream as I realize the seriousness of understanding and taking stock of propensities that are very alive within yet controllable externally, and suppressed. I would think that since some time ago, having supposedly matured... that would not have this type of behavior that I have had as a young adult. The day I realized that I was becoming like my father in temper, as I was reacting with a girlfriend; I became really very shocked to see myself, and so disappointed, that I decided on that moment to change that part of me especially when it came to relationships. For a long time, I remembered that moment when all of the sudden it just downed on me "oh my god I am becoming like my dad!"

This episode in the dream stems from a childhood of entitlement and arrogance as growing up in a family of diplomat and misguidance. I could see that at that time, all along the dream, I was the center of the universe and nothing else mattered including decorum and respect for parental authority (which in reality would have been there, hopefully). So even years later, habits are so ingrained, that upon reincarnating in spite of all my wanting deep and genuine change or elevation is in vain. Now I know that upon reincarnating my picked up instincts will reemerge; a sobering realization, to actually feel it.

:-) ... I was with gurubhai Alfredo D. we were trying to fix a TV in order to view a program. It wasn't working, so we went at his house to get some tool. His house was a very big place, like a mansion. We then walked back to where the small tube was as we conversed leisurely through the nice tropical suburban neighborhood.

Perhaps something to do with viewing the practice session that was posted, as well as the discourse relating to Sri Aurobindo...

:-) ... I called a friend and she was inquiring as to my how I was doing. She is Mexican so the conversation was in Spanish. I replied to her that I was so tired. She paused, and was silent longer than normal to add to such statement. So I added so exhausted (I do feel overwhelmed these days...). I sensed that she was quiet attempting to feel how distraught my energy was. Then things started to shake, slowly and gradually worse. It was an earthquake. There was a baby in a bed close to me. I thought that we were dead for sure. I very hurriedly grabbed the baby by the feet (which was closest to me) and launched for the door. At the exit of the building, there was a funnel as everybody was trying to make it out. And there were shouts of "salir, salir,...: to get out" 

MiBeloved 5 years ago

unlimitedsun wrote:

The day I realized that I was becoming like my father in temper,

MiBeloved's Response:

This is the incorrect way of perceiving this even though this is the natural way. People are in the habit of accrediting the habits of children to their parents or grandparents.

As a child growing up in Guyana, I used to hear many persons speak to some junior in the family and say, “You take after your father,” or, “You take after your mother.

However usually this is totally incorrect. How do you know that your father did not take the behavior from you when you were his elder in your previous life? In that case, as yourself as the source of the unwanted behavior, blaming him is totally off.

The proper way to see this is to trace out in yourself the course of the behavior irrespective of your parent or grandparent. Believe it or not, many parental attitudes are derived from their children, so when people see the child behaving in an undesirable way, the traditional way to regard it, is to trace it to the parent but that method should be abandoned by yogi.

Unless you know for sure that the behavior is really rooted in your parents based on knowledge about your past life performance, it is best not to follow the traditional way of dealing with this.

Bodily mannerisms are for sure from the parents usually but the psychological tendencies are usually coming with the person from his or her past life. We do adopt certain psychological habits from our parents but we also carry in the subtle body our own good or bad behaviors and these resurface in the new life again, just as certain types of leaves and flowers blossom out from plants in the spring.

After the body reaches adult stage, usually one resists one parents and that is the effort of the subtle body to reinstall the old behaviors from the past life. It is like if you reinstall an old operating system software like Windows XP into a new computer which has Window 8 in it.

So one should first try to find out the source of the bad behaviors in one’s psyche and should not be eager to write off a bad behavior as something adopted from the parents.

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unlimitedsun wrote:

All of the sudden it just downed on me "oh my god I am becoming like my dad!"

MiBeloved's Response:

Maybe this should be, “O my God, I am resuming the old behaviors from my elderly years in my past body.”

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unlimitedsun wrote:

This episode in the dream stems from a childhood of entitlement and arrogance as growing up in a family of diplomat and misguidance.

MiBeloved's Response:

The question here is why this particular child took the life of entitlement seriously. We find that some children who grow up in luxury do not necessarily carry chips on their shoulders. We find that in childhood some children of the same parents are humble, while others are arrogant.

People usually blame the parents for this on the basis of favoritism to particular children by the parents. However there is another side to this which is to look at the reason for particular children to absorb arrogance either from their social class or from their parent (s) fondness.

It may be that most children allow that to go to their heads but since a few do not, we cannot just say that it is the parent (s) or the luxury of the household. For the purpose of kriya yoga, you have to look at yourself to see why you took that sort of birth. Why were you attracted to it in the first place?

In my own situation, if I had the choice and if I had the insight to see the luxurious or ordinary position of a family, I would avoid those families who are in luxury because of the danger of adopting arrogance. I have seen many people who even though arrogant like that do not even recognize that they are and cannot admit to it even if they are shown details of their behavior.

But the issue is the attraction to such families in the first place.

Alfredo 5 years ago

Surya Ji!

Great dream recall...wrong house though, ha, ha.