Sense-of-Identity Retraction

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Date:  Posted 3 years before Aug 06, 2016

MiBeloved 3 years ago

This morning during meditation, I was able to identify the search energy which comes out of the sense of identity. This was due to some help which I got from Srila Yogeshwarananda.

There is no self by itself in material existence, because the self is fused with certain other adjuncts and cannot free itself totally from these adjuncts. Particularly the sense of identity remains with the self. This sense can be purified or made transparent and prejudice-less. Then the self is freed (kaivalyam). It is a question of how to do this.

During meditation this morning, as soon I braced in naad sound at the back of the subtle head, Srila Yogesh showed a flow of energy which exuded from the sense of identity. This is an invisible or transparent energy, which means that the self does not normally see this energy.

Due to becoming more and more sensitive, more and more capable of perceiving supernatural objects and their movements, I could see this energy. It has a threefold urge within it, which was:

·       Seeking energy

·       Search identification reporting energy

·       Consumption feelers which capture energy

None of these energies come out of the core-self. They exude out of the sense of identity as one energy but as it pushes out from there it becomes altered as it pursues various types of sense fulfillment.

Because the core-self is surrounded spherically by the sense-of-identity, it feels as if it emits this energy. And in any case it is held responsible for the effects of this energy.

Srila Yogeshwarananda gave a practice which he says should be the second stage of practice after the student has settled down in naad sound. He does not think that one should focus on the third eye as many gurus recommend.

He gave this sequence for practice.

·       Breath infusion (which includes various asana postures)

·       Adhering to naad sound in meditation

·       Locating the seeking energy which exudes from the sense of identity

·       Curling this energy back into the sense of identity

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Srila Yogesh is of the opinion that the student should not make up anything or visualize anything in meditation. The student should work with what is self-existent even if that is very subtle.

If the buddhi intellect orb is present, then this practice cannot be done. The student must do the pranayama breath infusion to proficiency which results in the disappearance of the buddhi intellect orb.

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