Practice Reports Surya - 08/31/2012 to 09/02/2012
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Date: Posted 5 years before Sep 05, 2017
unlimitedsun 5 years ago
Fri 08/31/2012 -- A really cute session?
Practice routine could not be thoroughly completed. I took some short cuts because of time constraints.
Comment: I am now realizing as much as I can the importance of a thorough warm-up. It was not evident to come to that conclusion since yoga is unlike other "sports" where it is more or less intuitive. Well, yoga itself can be mistaken for a warm-up because warm up is usually the very fact of stretching the system and getting the blood running.
So I am seeing that an in depth warm up is truly as important as aspiring for a good session. Even when time is of the essence I now do a warm-up, since short changing the warm-up to get into the session ends up in just a so-so result. A real good warm up allows me good results even if the session itself is abbreviated. So warm up is nowadays sort of a back bone to my practice, and it's working well I think.
The thing was to first see the need for one, and then very importantly to assess what would a warm be for me, what exactly and how much is needed.
That said, somehow today I did a good warm up for I was already feeling kundalini just from the warm-up. I told myself not to solicit kundalini today for fear that I won't be able to control it. I was not very focused because of I was under time constraint. I solicited in the middle of the session, and from apprehension I was too much on guard therefore I did not get much of a reaction (good). By the end of the session I was into the yoga after a few good stretches and forgot all. I applied the lock in a plank position on the hands. Kundalini came up too strongly. I passed out, not to the point of loosing time, but fell to the side and was shaking all over.
I picked myself up and thought that it is not a big deal, and that a kid will not walk without falling, blah blah.
I conclude my practice when I can afford it with the headstand (with supports). So then after the headstand, as I was getting ready to go sit and meditate; I felt a very powerful ball of energy in my stomach! It was not going away and I didn't have any locks applied (neither was I soliciting kundalini). The energy in my guts was overpowering and I wasn't sure what do to do to make it go away. I didn't know if I was going to throw up or having an awful cramp. In addition waves were coming over my head making me disoriented, confused and apprehensive.
I went for the sofa, glad to have located my cell phone. I thought that I wouldn't be able to even place a phone call, but I managed to Michael, who picked up after a few long rings. He explained that more practice and time as well as easing all these distractions I face continually will help with controlling kundalini. I skipped meditation as I was feeling very unsettled.
So I guess as the kid falls learning to walk, there are those falls that make you run to mommy/daddy for the boo boo you just got. I remember the other time I called Michael frantically in the middle of practice, when I first met him (over 10 years ago) and experienced the third eye opening as I peered into the subtle. Anyways, I will get my confidence back again and walk fine.
After breakfast as I stood up I was still feeling the energy moving, and became concerned about driving to work in rush hour. Kundalini had arisen without being directly solicited afterall. And I recalled reading Michael experiencing kundalini in the middle of work day! I can't afford passing out in traffic or on the highway...
MiBeloved 5 years ago
Keep practicing.
Give the practice more attention.
If you invest in it, it will reward you.
unlimitedsun 5 years ago
Sat 09/01/2012
As Michael is staying at just about 30 min from my location over the extended weekend, I have gone to meet him for AM practice today. What a better way to regain confidence since yesterday morning?
I noticed that kundalini for practicing with Michael raises throughout the session. Kundalini, he made me approach with particular expertise.
We then sat for a decent length of meditation. My mind was not focused. Michael then spoke to me regarding that very predicament...
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Sun 09/02/2012
I joined Michael to do yoga at 4 AM. However I had barely slept 4 hours, so things were not happening with expected results.
I felt some motions of kundalini, but these were not forceful. Meditation was also challenged for me.
After the session Michael spoke to me about some important points that target my present circumstances.
I expressed that although I practice bhastrika my dreams remain very mundane. Shouldn't I expect to rise higher on account of charging the bodies?
He explained that I do go higher but am unable to sustain there. The missing aspect in my saddhana is association with higher souls, so I need to read daily! Another commitment I have been unable to sustain over the years.
He added that I could regularly post a comment regarding my readings/realizations, to that I replied that these practice reports are enough challenge for me even if I may try.
Dream recall consisted of an anxiety loaded situation due to a loss. I was able to look at the situation with some wisdom, and come to some peace.
Alfredo 5 years ago
Surya!
What about reading the "Anu Gita Explained" and/or "Uddhava Gita Explained" and discuss some of it here?
There is enough there for years of discussion.
You don't need to read much daily. What this does to me is to keep me anchored in Sattva as much as possible. I live these teachings and they are not foreign to me. I don't think they are foreign to you either.
This is called Svādhyāya. Through this practice the spiritual fire is constantly rekindled. This is a kind of Satsang.
unlimitedsun 5 years ago
That's precisely it! yet, I have tried over the years to commit to my spiritual life and failed time after time year after year. Michael explained to me yesterday that it is all about my interest that is invested elsewhere. So you are right I must try myself at this old commitment of mine. Again, is my spiritual life my number one priority? Do I value it to be my highest interest?
Alfredo 5 years ago
Of course the interest is invested elsewhere.
For what I see, there is quite a bit of social commitments and entanglements, including job and family, that you can still practice, is nothing short of remarkable.
However, your advances in yoga are also remarkable, for example, in the asanas and the ease of raising the kundalini (after soliciting it, as you say, hope you don't mind I borrowed the word from you and use it now myself, it is very apt). Then you have had the nearness to Michael.
unlimitedsun 5 years ago
Oh, by all means you shall continue soliciting kundalini.
For me it is baffling, so much to tackle.
All things considered it seems like being Sisyphus in Albert Camus' myth of Sisyphus in regard to my yo-yo effects over the year. Michael ever so diligently pulls me up by dint of all undeserved mercy, but all these other distractions along with my own impetus drag me back down. My only hope is in the faith, is the hope of one day taking his advice to heart.
