How I Failed my family

May 17, 2023 

Houston Texas 

Now I will write about my mistake and failures in my marriage  

As I look back over the years in my marriage I can understand how and why it was destined for failure. I haven't a clue of what I was going into and what it meant to be a householder. With no advice from anyone and no skills to make money, my marriage was all but over from the day I got married. 

Although I had my first son in the first year of marriage and the second one four years after I was still unable to take the initiative to acquire a skill to earn money to take care of my family duties. Since I got married and just came out of an Iskcon temple I continue to behave as though I was still living in the temple .

I continue to indulge the same things I was doing to earn money for the temple, except this time I was doing to maintain my family. Of Course it was not going to work out, but it was all I had to go on. With no money to go to school to acquire  skill I was forced to continue with what I have until my wife could not go on like that, and subsequently left.

Shortly thereafter I got my first job where I know  it's something I can do to earn enough money to take care of what’s left of my marriage, which was my sons. With what I have I was still able to get my boys through school. By then, five years later I had my third son with a different woman, and that boy, although his mother was a lot wealthier than I was, I wasn't able to do as much as I did with my first boys . 

I was able to offer what I could as money would come in spots meaning now you get it and now you don’t. The times I was not able to do more I would stay away ( ditched ) them. 

Just to add a footnote, they are all of age now, they were all able to finish school, and I’m still struggling to acquire a skill .