Alone/Ekaki

September 7th,2024

This morning after breath infusion, I lay on the ground to meditate. As I pulled my energy to the back of the head , I somehow felt like I stayed in the center and then I just stayed there for some time observing.After sometime a thought came that I am alone and eventually will be alone.

I stayed in that aloneness again without thoughts. Then after sometime I remembered what the Yogi Madhavacharya kept telling us that after an astral experience/ dream we come back to this physical and resume our life , but death will be when we are stuck in the astral and cannot come back to the physical. I let this sit with me for some time just again staying in this aloneness, hazy space.

As I was coming out of meditation a memory came of my astral experience in 2005 which felt like a near death experience. I then remembered that experience of how I was pulled out of my body by 2 gruesome looking entities that looked like the devil we would see in movies. They took me to  hell and I saw so many people who were screaming while being dragged into the gates of hell by beings that looked like the ones who held me and brought me to that location. 

As I recollected that experience I observed that I didn’t think of family, friends or society but rather how to get out of that horrific experience but yet in the waking state we cling on to loved ones. 

I/ We have to embrace this harsh reality that death removes all relationships and we are forced to be alone. In my daily life there is a constant wrestling with the Prakriti to stay in the state of awareness of what I may experience during meditation sessions , hearing from Yogis or even what I may read from Yogi Madhavacharya’s book that reveals truth and gives solace or rather soothe the wounds.