A time conversion to my infancy

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Date:  Posted 6 years before Dec 06, 2018

MiBeloved 6 years ago

Srila Yogeshwarananda had me go over some details of my infancy in this body, right about the time soon after this body was delivered from the mother’s system.

At first I was in an astral parallel world in a place adjacent to where this body took its birth. This is a place now called Linden but it was called Mackenzie at the time in what is known now as Guyana.

In that circumstance, my mother had gone to that place to get employment because none of her family or my father’s could support her. My father was irresponsible with his income, meaning that he wasted it on drinking and gambling on occasion.

During the astral time I was in that parallel place, it was just like I had gone back into time, having been projected through a time conversion area in the astral by Srila Yogesh. He was saying, “Go and look at this. Review this. Consider how it happened.”

When I got in that time conversion zone, I was there with two persons who were my mother, who is deceased, and my uncle, a brother of my father, who currently lives in the UK. My father, who is deceased, came there soon after but he was not really there. It was like he was there but his attention was somewhere else.

My energy was happy to be in the place and wanted to be in a smaller town which was across the Demarara River, a place called Wismar, which was more rural then Mackenzie which had a large bauxite plant.

As my energy was hopeful for a simple situation there was resistance and tugging from my father’s energy because he was attracted to the capital city which is Georgetown, which is some 65 miles away, and in which I actually spent most of my infancy and juvenile days.

My mother for her part was satisfied with Mackenzie but mostly because of the income she was making and the accommodations which she had in that place. She was not concerned with the interest of children but with nice accommodation, luxury and convenience. My uncle for his part just looked on with amusement. He is the kind of person who can make do with anything.

After I got out of that time conversion place, Srila Yogesh, on the astral side said this:

“A yogi cannot be sure what will happen when he takes a body, as to how the parents will function, as to if the mother and father will stay together or separate, as to their economic situation, as to the educational opportunities, as to the location of the residence. All of this may go awry.

“In my own life I ran away because my family was so materialistic. Once you understand what you wanted to be and what actually happened and then you see the tension, you can make up your mind about the hazards of reincarnation. To those people you were not a yogi, you were a little infant who was a bother and a responsibility. Of course all parents like their children but they also feel the inconvenience of having infants and the strain of their desires in reference to the needs of those kids. It is not easy.

“Why would any sane yogi, after evaluating the childhood situations and the tensions of the parents, have fantasies about how nice it is to take one of these bodies?”